Missing a lot of good things in life.

I need to talk about something that is so random and that doesn't fit into the Science category! Gaaahh!

I've been so into my studies lately that I've totally lost sight of other things i used to believe i couldn't live without.

Like books for example. No, not the kind Bauman writes, or Tortora. Or Hyman.
Nothing that involves Genetics, or Systematics - which by the way is impossibly difficult to master, or on-line books that teach me the key to understanding the differentiation of microscopic zooplankton. None of that.

I'm talking about the kind of books that I used read in a cozy corner of a room, books that take me some place else, that allow me to live within the characters of the story. These are the kinds of books I desperately miss. What I need now is a massive change. Something that will keep me from drowning into my dream of being a scientist. I don't need that now. It's too early.

Free time! Another thing i sorely miss. Siesta is expensive now. I can't sit around and think about absolutely nothing anymore. That's bad. My brain is so overworked that sometimes i believe i would just collapse and submit to coma. Ugghh, no way.

That's why i'm hoping to get into that program i've been trying to get into since last year. I know it will change a lot of things. I know.

I just need to wait.

Please.